pOeTrY tImE bY mE

"Note To Self"

I'm tired of feeling left behind,
I'm tired of all the tears.
I'm tired of all the loneliness,
I'm tired of feeling fear.

I wish I could take it all back,
I wish it would go away.
It doesn't matter what you do,
It doesn't matter what you say.

Escape by what-
An event here and there?
Don't you know it's never enough?
I just want to go out and share.

Go to classes, go to bed,
Go shopping then read for a bit.
How does one define friendship,
And how can you know a relationship's legit?

What can save you?
Apathy hurts more than you'd think.
I'm not sure what to do-
My life is one big kink.

Health, wealth, wisdom-
That's all I should ever want.
Who knew you'd find happiness,
When you're not even on the hunt?

When will I know
That my journey's come to an end?
When I reach my destination,
Will there be another bend?

There's always more;
It's never enough stuff.
I say this over and over,
But now I've really had enough.

I want my beginning to be my end,
I want the solace I had, again.
I want to be noticed, liked, even loved.
I want to feel relieved by the power of a pen.

I will keep fighting always,
I will continue on with life.
I will make my mark on the world,
I will heal the wounds that have cut me like a knife.

2010!

Meet Lucy March 7th in Portland


Megan and Jesse's wedding in Logan March 13


Study Abroad in London in April


Twilight road trip to Forks, Washington in June


Visiting parents in Malaysia in August


My BFF's mission homecoming in October

Nathan's teaching me how to cook. He's veeeeeeery patient.

Hola!

Oh my gosh, I am such a dork. I love Chinese! It's just so undescribably empowering, speaking in such an odd language! I mean, Spanish is fairly easy, or at the very least comfortable because I spent sooo much time in Venezuela. But Chinese?! Crazy. I just love it. I've written two essays so far and have one due every week from here on out. I even go to Chinese Corner Thursday mornings AND I have managed to convince my roommate and bestest friend ever that she wants to chat with me in Mandarin. :) It's a fast-paced course, but it's kinda fun. Like today, we got into two groups and have a race to see which group could write three sentences faster, with each person writing just one word, then getting back in line!
Can I just say that I'm super happy "Psych" is back? It's about time! I was going through withdrawls. "House" is awesome and will forever be my FAVORITE TV show, but "Psych" is just entertaining, slightly puzzling, and downright funny. It's a nice break from "To the Lighthouse," the Book Group book from Heck; though it was fun last night, sitting in Katie's fort/clubhouse/living room, passing around the brownie dish, while talking about feminism in 1920-England. Gotta love Book Group! A couple of us girls in the group call it the man in our lives. TMI? :) Love it!